May 2010
9 posts
“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for...”
– Elizabeth Gilbert “Eat Pray Love”
Spinning
Life spins, ever moving picking up speed, increasing velocity. The seasons pass, the years blur, and life keeps moving forward. But I am still. Untouched, unchanged, whole, yet secretly shattered. Vertigo, the spinning circles never ceasing one whole year, one time around. I pay the price to complete the ride, the never ending ride. Oh, how I yearn to press rewind, to erase the bruises...
Lust
No one can enter this place, this hideaway, Cuz the door is locked and I’ve swallowed the key. The sharp edges lacerate my throat, Making it hard for me to swallow The sweet nothings that cloak your lies. I lay here wrapped in caution tape An accident that’s already happened, An empty shell listening to you pound on the walls outside, Poisoning me with the empty promises and happily ever...
Icy Hot by...well...me
The world is still, cloaked in sheets of white icy perfection, forever unmatched, forever unrivaled glisteningly beautiful, harshly sterile and my heart dances stretching and flexing towards the cold sunlight has this heat always been hiding inside me, waiting to be discovered? nothing holds me back, nothing keeps me from dancing in the perfection leaving footprints where no one has...
Song by Christina Rossetti
When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree;
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet;
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.
I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightengale
Sing on, as if in pain;
And dreaming through the twilight
That doth not...
“The tale of how we suffer, and how we are delighted, and how we may triumph is...”
– James Baldwin “Sonny’s Blues”
Fear
So I used to think my experience was unique, that my story made me special or something. I went through this horrible relationship and I thought no one understood what I feel everyday, especially now that I’m dating someone else: The fear that this relationship will end up exactly the same way that one did or that I’ll fail to see the signs and stop it before it completely obliterates...
