June 2010
34 posts
I’m hoping Germany will clear my head about Shane. I have these moments when I feel like I still like him and I try to cling to them and make them stretch longer because I don’t know when the feelings started to fade or why. I don’t want them to go away. I want to be capable of falling for someone again. I don’t want to be ruined anymore. Fuck Eric for making me this way....
“Sometimes you can do the right thing and still regret it.”
– Al Riske Precarious
I don’t want to pack AT ALL. My dad has already downsized my suitcase which is a major bummer, especially because I always, always, always over-pack. What can I say, it’s a character flaw. I’m still waiting on a load of laundry to dry before I can even start to pick out clothes for this trip. The Germans never ever wear shorts, but summer is way too hot to worry about standing...
“He liked all books because he liked the mere act of reading, the magic of...”
– An Abundance of Kathrines - John Green (via lalalacia) (via quote-book)
“Life’s greatest tragedy is not that it will someday end, but that most only live...”
– Alex Gaskarth (via quote-book)
“Being a bitch is easy. It’s finding the alternative that’s hard.”
– David Levithan The Realm of Possibility
“What doesn’t kill me makes me vomit.”
– Ana Castillo Peel My Love Like An Onion
“Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me...”
– Sylvia Plath (via little-fighter) (via quote-book)
“Sorry is irrelevant. There’s no point being sorry about something unless you can...”
– Chloe | Sleeping Arrangements - Madeleine Wickham (via b33swax, quote-book) (via atsyrc) (via wordsleftunsaid)
“And you’ve decided to love me for eternity; I’m still deciding who I want to be...”
– Ani Difranco, Light of Some Kind (via thoughtsdetained) (via quote-book)
“Maybe not everything is supposed to last forever. Certain things are like… like…...”
– Little Manhattan (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the words I...”
– Walt Whitman (via liquidnight) (via ennelletti) (via aperfectcommotion) (via crashinglybeautiful) (via beautyabounds) (via wordsleftunsaid)
“It takes two people to make a lie work: the person who tells it, and the one who...”
– Jodi Picoult (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
Baby I'm Nothing But Bad News
I can’t shake this feeling of disconnect. He keeps telling me how much i mean to him and how much he misses me and I say it back, but I hardly feel anything at all besides annoyance. Even telling him what was wrong and what I was feeling didn’t help. I don’t know what’s wrong and I don’t know what to do. It’s unbelievably frustrating. I don’t want to be...
“Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you...”
– White Oleander (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“Love is just a simple thought,
a little bit the worse for wear like a thief who...”
– Klaus Nomi - A Simple Man (via quote-book)
“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity...”
– Henry David Thoreau (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you...”
– Unkown (via fuckyeahhlove)
“I desire the things which will destroy me in the end.”
– Sylvia Plath (via urticaria, liveindelusion, silentheartache) (via expose) (via wordsleftunsaid)
Forget What I Want, You're All That I Need
“How close am I to losing you” is what he asked me tonight. I told him not to ask me questions like that…mostly because I don’t know what the answer is. So I said that things need to change. Shane thinks he can stop over reacting and be more capable of handling issues. He said that if I don’t have faith that it will work then he has no faith. I can’t just...
“The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of...”
– Max Lerner; Journalist
“people think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants....”
– Richard from Texas, Eat Pray Love (via tat714)
“Teach your heart that this is destiny”
– Elizabeth Gilbert “Eat Pray Love”
I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now
Rachel, Alea, and I were talking about engagements today and how we’re supposed to be dating towards a goal. It made me feel old and really scared. Rachel was talking about how she doesn’t have any desire to go out there and be single again or do any of the things we used to do. The problem is, I still miss that and I’m not ready to give it up. It makes me worried that Shane and...
Do You Remember When You Were Young and You Wanted...
I wonder sometimes if you’re it. The last boy who will cause those butterflies. The last boy to hold my hand. And it freaks me out. There are so many parts of you that I’m crazy about…but there are just as many things that drive me crazy instead. It all boils down to experience. I’ve had so much more of it than you have. You don’t have the maturity to deal with some...
Don't Mind Me If I Get Weak In The Knees
He only left ten minutes ago and I already miss him.
Will you do all these things like we used to?
Once you asked me for a list of all your transgressions so that you could make sure you “never treated a girl like that again”. I refused, not wanting to help you make another girl happy. I’ve recently reconsidered and, although I’ll never show you this list, I have no problem showing everyone else.
You weren’t interested in the real me, only in the version of me that fit your ...
